What is it about a serial killa that attracts you?

And makes this music that you can sharpen an axe to

Taking you back through a hallway to a black room

No walls or ceilings, just doorways to pass through

You choose, chainsaws are always nice

But razorblades and knives are way more precise

When it comes to cutting, this shit here is an art

And we finish what we start, that's what separates us apart

From other motherfuckers, not saying no names

But them other motherfuckers (Ain't family)

And they say I'm sick, too sick

Well how sick do you get?

When you see a chest without a butcher knife buried in it

Wait a minute, give me an axe

I wanna smash your ribcage in half

For every time you laugh on our behalf

Will you let me another chance to redefine?

The mind of a serial killa

Serial killa

K I double L A

Fruit looped out of my mind like Godzilla (Kill)

Serial killa (Killa, Killa)

Torture and destroy (Killa, Killa)

Serial killa (Killa, Killa)

Could it be the blood? Maybe it's the blood you like

Or maybe it's my blatant disregard for life

Most people are afraid to deny it

But not me though

I keep it old school like a mink coat

Rusty blade, at least 12 inches

With the tipped cracked off from stabbing to many bitches

I'm digging ditches with a mental mind state

Just slit up and get vicious within a dark place

Throw ya mercy on the head of my axe

And pray to God I don't split you in half like train tracks

I can't control it, so I just put it in my music

And hopefully other killas can use it

Don't confuse it with the same old game

Cause the shit that I kick could put a glitch in your mainframe

Wicked to the bone I am

And you can meet me in the dark if you think I'm playing, what!

Serial killa

K I double L A

Fruit looped outta my mind like Godzilla (Kill)

Serial killa (Killa, Killa)

Torture and destroy (Killa, Killa)

Serial killa (Killa, Killa)

Who's the real killa?

Who's the motherfucka ya love and I hate

But in the mist will fuck with real millas

Trust ya bitch, we'll jock, you'll trip

We'll shock with pistol cocked (This the shit to knock)

Who am I?

Amerikilla, gorilla, the Juggalizzle my nizzle

With Psychopathic I'm rapping, we set to gangrene

Killa killa, the realla, banana fanna I feela

Nigga with a millimeter with the infrared beam

The axe is family, and for the family

I use the axe to separate your anatomy

Ain't no being mad at me, the shit ain't even worth it

I said I was a serial killa, not perfect

It's not my fault that I can't be trusted

And people like me aren't all disgusted

Some will slit necks and into skull crushing

And killing people over next to nothing motherfucker

Serial killa

K I double L A

Fruit looped outta my mind like Godzilla (Kill)

Serial killa (Killa, Killa)

Torture and destroy (Killa, Killa)

Serial killa (Killa, Killa)

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that song is cool as fuck, its off the green book. i still havent went out n got it, maybe next week or something. i dunno, but i wrireless is being a bitch, they took a 10$ card in 2 days, sayin i text too much, oh well am i wrong for talking to my buds? i guess. but hell fuck em, here soon ima switch to cingular, or verizon maybe. i gotta get me a job so i can save up the money to get my apt, ya know? anyways i cant wait til summer.. ill be 18!!! and ill be able to buy my own smokes instead of getting my buds to get them for me, blah. anyways last nite was fun, i went to wall mart n bought some more tiny silver hoops for my ears, and i had my mom mark my other ear, so i could pierce it. now i got 4 on each ear lobe and 1 in my left cartlege, i still gotta get my right ear pierced through my cartlege, oh well. ill get on that a lil later, hell i still gotta pop them hoops in my ears my right ear is all puffy n swelled. lol i gots a fat ear. heh ima pull the stud out and popp in a hoop in a lil bit so the blood will run out and the swellin will go down.

***i love chad***

valentines day
||3:27 pm||02/15/2004||
valentines day... hmm what can i say about it, well it started out cool, i woke up, thinking bout chad being psyched cuz i was looking forward to seeing him. i went to my grandmas chilled for like an hour, ate, went home got cleaned up, dressed again, got the stuff i bought him together, stuffed it in my bag, got dropped off, and met him at target, got what he go me, it was so cute!! (a big huge spongebob, and a glass rose) everything was going great we stopped got smokes, walked to danberry, watched elf, which was really cute, when we got out we went outside had a smoke and sat on the steps, but thease gurls kept runnin thier mouths, callin us sluts, (how are we sluts?? we were covered up..) we wasent doing anything slutty,... and all we was doin was chillin on the steps. a few tried to jump on my cousin. (which was bullshit) dude it was a huge mess. i was so mad, i hate people. i really do. it was suposed to be like our first date, everything was going fine, until we walked outside, and sat on the steps. i guess its a slutty thing to do when you sit on the steps with a guy. i could see some sense in them calling us sluts if we were freaking on our guys but we wasent. man i was just thinking like i know this isnt happening.. i thought for a second taht i was dreaming until i saw ore and more of them gurls crowding around us, what the hell. for real. why open your mouth you know?

∞ I ♥ Chad ∞just a dream
||10:38 am||02/14/2004||
Are you climbing up a slippery pole? (pole)
Fallin Deep In A Hole? (Deep In A Hole)
Fallin Down
Are you lost in an exitless maze,
Chasing impossible ways?
Are you runnin up a slippery hill?
Are you going to spill?
Can't you build a snowman in the desert?
Are You chasing an imaginary tresure?
Walls, they go under and there over the top (over the top)
They haven't made a cage strong enough to keep 'em keep 'em keep 'em (Keep 'Em)
Mountains are enormous, but they all have a top
it's up to someone with a dream to come and reach 'em reach 'em reach 'em (Reach 'Em)
It's Just A Dream
You're Only Dreamin
Another Dream
Will love be yours, if so, will it last?
When the summer's past, summers past (yeah)
When you're alone, starin up at the moon (up at the moon)
Is it staring at you (staring at you)
You're like a dime you didn't mean to spend Will you ever see it again? (see it again)
Walls, they go under then there over the top (over the top)
They haven't made a cage strong enough to keep 'em keep 'em keep 'em (Keep 'Em)
Mountains are enormous, but they all have a top
it's up to someone with a dream to come and reach 'em reach 'em reach 'em (Come Reach 'Em)
It's Just A Dream
You're Only Dreamin
Another Dream
Walls, they go under then there over the top (over the top!)
They haven't made a cage strong enough to keep 'em keep 'em keep 'em (Strong Enough To Keep 'Em!)
Mountains are enormous, but they all have a top (All Have A Top!)
it's up to someone with a dream to come and reach 'em reach 'em reach 'em (Come And Reach 'Em!)
Yeah, come and reach em
Only a dream
It's just a dream
It's just a dream'
And then they go on in your head and you would scream
Holdin Back your dreams
Yeah, ohh, holdin back your dreams
Yeah, Hold Always Dreamin Never Always Dreamin
~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>
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yay its valentines day today! i get to see chad, well i get to see ash, brandon, mandy and charles too, but mostly lookin forward to seein chad, since ash n brandon will be all over eachother and im by mandy all day. charles is ok, but he gets on my nerves sometimes, but hell hes ok or my sisters bf. ya know? but anyways i gotta meet ash at target, and meet chad at danberry so we can chill, i already got his valentines day stuff!!! wee!! but anyways i cant wait to see him ima smack him on the ass. hehe im suchj a geek but still. ima dress all cute for him today like wear my cute pants and my cute shirt, i was thinking about wearing the pink long sleeve one, or my yeloow one that says dont judge a gurl by her tee shirt, i want this one its pink and blue that says i will not tease the boys. i will not tease the boys like 8 times, it kinda looks like a chalk board on the front. :) anyways i wonder if chads still got them bracelettes on from saturda night... lol if he does hes such a goofball. but hes pretty. lol that sounded gay but still. ima make him wear my purse again, hehe well i might not even make him wear it, he prolly will want to just to be stupid. hehe, hes so silly!!!

∞ I ♥ Chad ∞call upon your gods
||10:59 am||02/13/2004||

It's funny how,the toughest criminals,
and thugs and whatever,
when they're on the death bed,
you know the day they about to fry in the electric chair,
all of the sudden they wanna get religious,
I heard 9 out of 10 inmates on deathrow are all ultra religious,
that's because they know they're about to die,
and they're about to meet whatevers after death,
it's funny nobody wants to turn to god til its too late,
til it's time for you to fucking die....:
Agony, pain, suffering, pain pain
Pain, pain, chains, devices and torture thangs
Is this hell, well, might as well be
It's what's next to that shit, I live life filthy
Sexed every bitch in the gutter, then we rob her mudda'
Find the shudda', then shoot bowa' for each other
I paint it all on the people around me
It's because of them God never found me right?
Before I hit the ground when I caught 3 in the chest
I should'a guessed my time was over, should'a worn a fuckin' vest
But I wasn't thinkin' straight, caught up in the thug life
Once the king on the streets, now i'm askin' God to take my life
To the pearly gates so I can rest peacefully
But he wasn't helpin' me, why is he foresakin' me?
To eternity of hell after rottin' away
And if it wasn't for the Lotus, i'd still be there today
Call Upon Your Gods
Pray for them to help you to help you
Call Upon Your Gods
Religion has left you
Now the final hour
Cross the final line
Life will end , but there is no end to time
Call Upon Your Gods
Pray for them to help you to help you
Call Upon Your Gods
Religion has left you
Now the final hour
Cross the final line
Life will end , but there is no end to time
Skin separates from bone, seperate from bone
One hot flash of metal, now your on this earth alone
Layin' face down in your own blood with nowhere to turn
Everything, from your fingertips to toes burn
He set's sin deep, open up your eye's
The cold clutch of death's hand, could care less about your lies
Hell's chariot comes to carry you away
You finally realized, it's to late to pray!
Help Me Out!!
I can't understand the way you think or what your talkin' about
I see you sittin' perfect circles, wit' deciples of Satan
I got my shotgun cocked, news papers and revilations
Every bullet is a story, they keep it glorified
The media's been talkin', and now they got's to die
Son a Sam, Sam a Son, walkin' wit' my shotgun
Wicked work will be done, fuck it catch a hot one
Call Upon Your Gods
Pray for them to help you to help you
Call Upon Your Gods
Religion has left you
Now the final hour
Cross the final line
Life will end , but there is no end to time
Call Upon Your Gods
Pray for them to help you to help you
Call Upon Your Gods
Religion has left you
Now the final hour
Cross the final line
Life will end , but there is no end to time
There aint no end in time, you hear me heathen, bitch boy?
Bite your devil tongue before I stab you with this pitchfork
All that shit you talk about, my God is a shame
Cryin' in pain, callin' his name
Your such a hypocrit, a low-down, inconsidrate
Piece of shit, and you aint worth an ounce a spit
Blasphemous dissin' my Lord, the Concrow
Where's the tough guy, that told my Lord to go and fuck himself bitch?
All of my life, and times, all of my crimes
It got me lookin' for the sign that God's alive
Cuz' there's got to be, more to this life than knifes
And cold lines, the violent crimes
I've realized, that they lied, cuz' God's alive, he's inside of me
There aint gone' be no afterlife where their judgin' me
I aint scared of death, I aint scared of life
When I die, i'm gone' smile, bring it on, it's a good thing to die

Call Upon Your Gods
Beg for them to help you to help you
Call Upon Your Gods
Religion has left you
Now the final hour,
Cross the final line,
Life will end , but there is no end to time
Call Upon Your Gods
Call Upon Your Gods
Beg for them to help you to help you
Call Upon Your Gods
Religion has left you
Now the final hour,
Cross the final line,
Life will end ,
but there is no end to time

HELP ME OUT, I CANT UNDERSTAND,
THE WAY YOU THINK OF WHAT YOURE TALKIN ABOUT

HELP ME OUT, I CANT UNDERSTAND,
THE WAY YOU THINK OF WHAT YOURE TALKIN ABOUT

HELP ME OUT, I CANT UNDERSTAND,
THE WAY YOU THINK OF WHAT YOURE TALKIN ABOUT

HELP ME OUT, I CANT UNDERSTAND,
THE WAY YOU THINK OF WHAT YOURE TALKIN ABOUT
~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>
that song is cool, chad likes it too, tomorrow is valentines day which is cool, i gotta take my tempts test 2morrow morning, which totally sucks, but not really if you think about it, cuz i could just go chill wherever i wanted, when i wanted, ya kno? which will be cool except oi have to have someone in the car wit me who is 21 or older, but hell, ill still be able to drive!! :) my dads truck might be what ill end up driving cuz i doubt my mom will trust me wit her van lol, well i might just buy me a used car or something, like a chevette, which is awesom, i love those lil things, hehe i swear im a bum, but nah i will prolly get me a lil junk car or something, something crazy like a pinto, lol. i aint really caring about what ill be driving, ya know? but hell it will be cool, i aint gonna have to wait on my dad to take me no where. which is gonna be extra cool, and then i aint gonna have to sneak out and get caught again, lol i still fuck wit miranda for getting stuck on that fence, hehe. but anyways at the second im burnin a cd wit som lotus and twiztid on there so i got somethin to listen to when i go out 2morrow night,

∞ I ♥ Chad ∞say it aint so
||1:18 pm||02/12/2004||
Somebody's Heinekin
Is crowding my icebox
Somebody's cold one
Is giving me chills
I guess I'll just close my eyes
Oh yeah
Alright
Feels good
Inside
Flip on the tele
Wrestle with Jimmy
Something is bubbling
Behind my back
The bottle is ready to blow
Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker
I can't confront you
I never could do that
Which might hurt you
Try and be cool
When I say
This way is a waterslide
Away from me
That takes you further
Every day
So be cool
Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker
Dear Daddy,
I write you
In spite of years of silence
You've cleaned up
Found Jesus
Things are good or so I hear
This bottle of Steven's
Awakens ancient feelings
Like father, stepfather
The son is drowning in the flood
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker
Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker
~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>
i love that song, weezer sings it, my dad dosent really care for it in particular cuz he said it sounds like dude is whining while hes singing. meh oh well parents cant apriciate good music. lol, anyways i got minutes for my phone again which is cool, cuz i got to talk to chad. i miss him mass, but hell saturday is da day after 2morrow, :) yeah buddy! but ayways we got a new kid in classs today hes kinda cool, he dont take shit like *D* does so hes fun to play with,

∞ I ♥ Chad ∞angel eyes
||1:29 am||02/11/2004||
Homely, thick in mind, never listen
Worn, tired siren drawn tunnel vision
Don't forget this chance only live once
Sprung, hypnotized by light, had to get some
Get it all
She said I forgive you
Don't regret our time
You've got to move on love
Angel eyes
Four years and still I dream
Agonize
Such beauty not since seen
Bow down, piper leading, you were one
Hungry, took the prize, then you got dumb
Don't live out your life like a sad song
Sprung, hypnotized by light, had to get some
Get it all
She said I forgive you
You must do or die
You've got to let me go
Angel eyes
Your face is all I see
Agonize
Forever haunting me
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ah i think of that song when i think about tim, i gues the part where it says youve gotta move on love, and you gotta let me go, i guess im glad im almost finaly over him, i mean i miss him but barely, its not to the point where im in agony over him at all. i dont cry when i think about him, i just think and its like hmm. wow that was nice, but oh well i got chad now, and hes nice and cute and stuff :) plus hes thick and i lurve thick guys, i like a guy with some meat on him and lets face it timmy didnt have much meat on him at all, hes thin but hes got muscles on his arms but thats about it, you know? but anyways at school we were trying to get *d* to fire back at us, which he wont, i dunno why but he just wont cap back for nothing, i was teasing him saying he has no ass. and he just looked like you fucking bitch lol you know? but hell hes funny to play with, :) anyways i cant wait til saturday i get to see my baby and get to chill with him for a lil bit, hehe ima smack his ass like bap! bap! lol im a perve i swear.

∞ I ♥ Chad ∞

its better to burn out than to fade away

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