I'm always too late

I see the train leaving

I'm always laughing

When it's not cool to smile

I'm always aiming

But somehow keep missing

So how did you get here

Something is wrong

Where did I go right

How did I get you

How come all this blue sky is around me

And you found me

Where did I go right

How did I get you

I don't know how I did

But somehow now I do

I'm always driving

Forget where I'm going

Should have turned left

But I was singing some song

And I, I am arriving

As everyone's leaving

But there you are waiting

Something is wrong

Makes no sense to me

No it isn't clear

But somehow you're standing here

Something gets to me

It's that nothing is wrong

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ive been thinking about how me and chad are getting along. and lately its making me mad, one minute we are fine, the next minute ive said something wrong and i'm on my floor crying and hes at his house pisssed off majorly. i'm tired of it, i cant stand fighting with him all the time i confronted him about it yesterday and i upset him, i guess he thought i was gonna break up with him, im tired of his cussing im tired of him saying mean things then going back and saying im sorry i didnt mean it. it dosent fly taht way im tired of the attitude, and the anger. i had a headache yesterday and he chose to still repeat everything he said to me, like with the constant "K's" when he texts me, it really got on my nerves, and i said something about it, i said "fucking stop" he says "if your gonna continue to cuss at me then you can go fuck yourself!" such a nice thing to say to your girlfriend it really made me not wanna talk to him no more, i told him "fuck it, im done!" and it started the whole guilt trip thing, the "what are you saying? are you saying your done with me??" and im tired of it i really am, this cant happen all the time i told him i was tired of feeling like crying all the time, i cant do it, i cant sit in my room all day wondering what did i do wrong?? it just cant happen! i told him all of this and all he said was "sorry" SORRY????? thats it?? sorry. i cant take it. i cant do it. it seems like the first 2 months were heaven but these last 2 months have been hell i cant do it anymore, ill end up going nuts, i still love him to death but if this keeps up its got to end.